Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.


Albert Einstein

24 hour suspension

4th floor @ the foothills hospital, down to the end of a long hallway. its like a mini ward full of beds with people either waiting to begin or waiting to go home. Two cancellations means Im not in the place for more than a few minutes and Im up. I get a nice young fellow explaining as much as he can while he hooks me up for an iv. he tells me what to expect like a sore throat and so on.

So im in bed with my nice gown for maybe a minute and along she comes, undoes the brake and im on the way. Its a cozy room with the GI , 2 other guys and a couple maybe three nurses. A few more instructions and the sedative sends me to lala land. I wake during the deal and feel myself starting to gag. A nurse sucks the water out and i doze off a little deeper.

Next thing Im back where I began waiting to get up. the nurse says to sleep a little , so I do. The GI wakes me and gives me the lowdown. Successful biopsy he says along with his thoughts on what he thinks.

I get my pants on and I'm gone.. No driving for 24 hours they tell. Im legally impaired.

No regrets

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it and if it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would most likely be worth it."

Go easy

Well things are starting to move along.
It's two more days till they do an endoscopic ultrasound and take a tissue
sample from the growth at the end of my pancreas . Going to be a three hour deal at
the foothills on Monday. Then another week of waiting to see the results.The in between time kind of wears on you.

Doc Hafaz says the best he can offer right now is to stay active and focus on the positive, that and another fill on my zopiclone. Oh and if I want he gives me a pill that offers about two hours of peace and calm. Go easy he says , they are addictive.
So we'll see. Maybe.

Outrageous parking

Strangely enough I overslept a little. Thank you Zopiclone.

As I drive onto the foothills hospital site, old memories from 6 years ago start to
come back. It's a place that I really didn't want to see again.
Yep same area as that time long ago . only this time its Dr Elijah Dixon ( with a long list of credentials plus assoc professor of surgery and oncology ) instead of Dr Grondin ( the hotshot surgeon out of Boston)

Hes busy so I see his assistant a young woman ( Dr Julie leeds ?) I answer all her questions and she kind of lays the situation on the table. Heres what were facing and heres how we get to the pancreas etc. She hasn't seen the scan yet ,so she leaves us to try and bring it up on her computer.

A few minutes later shes back with Dr Dixon. He too lays it out there of what to exoect. If its new, its surgery and if its from the lung its chemo and radiation therapy. its even possible that its still pre cancerous. So they write up the requisition for the biopsy. They stamp URGENT on it and someone writes "very" on top of it. I ask what that means, and the lady says Oh it might get them to move a little quicker.

So back to waiting for the phone call with a date.

With a little help from God..

$10.50 for 3 hours parking.. thats robbery

The Lougheed

Busy day at the lougheed today. When a nurse hooks you up for the iv solution before you go into the ct room. I asked her if I was her first, she said no ..Second.. I paid for that I think,, my arm is still sore.. in and out on time.
next up, a meeting with the surgeon next Tuesday.

company

You wait for the phonecall or the letter in the mail, telling me where to go for my next scan, the one that will concentrate on a specific area. I'm feeling good so I dont know if I want them to hurry up or take their time? Its the anxiety and lack of sleep that drives my restlessness.Not being alone is comforting.

Big Brother

I think I kind of knew this day would come. I had hoped it wouldn't be for awhile yet. It seems that every time i'd go to see Dr Pinilla he always had good news for me. Today when he walked in I knew that it would be different. So when you hear news that you didn't really want to hear it takes a bit of time before you acccept the fact hes talking to you about you. Nothing is for sure he says until we have a closer look. so that means another scan in the near future. The tech who phoned him says he cant be certain but its a tumour about 3 cm long. A month ago the doc in the clinic says about 1/4 of an inch. Tech says it might be a rare type of growth but he cant be sure. So its back to the anxiety that you hate having but cant do anything about. Waiting for the phonecall to report to high River or Canmore for another ct scan. Then the biopsy.. Big Brother on tonight, that will occupy for a bit..hope shelly goes home.